The Calling

Back then, I was dauntless And dawn could never know And my weakness made me weep less Than I would ever show you I'd burn so bright it blinded Now I know that light guided me here I walked into the river To wring those embers from my broken heart and broken liver You'll never get your dinner if you don't learn how to get along And a fox somewhere is hiding That light I thought was blinding brought me here I look into the waters and see a face I don't understand We're both unwanted daughters But there's more than water in these autumn hands I look into the waters and see a face I don't recognize Who's this? (Who are you?) "What changed?" I ask "So strange," she replies Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much) Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come) There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling) (Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling, calling Back then, I wasn't hopeful But now my ink's blood-red, not black And I'll blink like ripping envelopes In the hopes that you'll write back And on the banks of that river I shiver as a fox stands frozen And I close them, I close them, I close my eyes 'Cause I'm between that just-one-more And drank-too-much-again And I promise you I'll write "I love you" With my fingers on your sleeping hand And when that fox howls, I'll howl with it In its cries I'll find an end And when I think I'm fine, you'll visit And then you happen to me, you happen to me all over again In the waters, I see a face I don't want to look back Do you like my dress? It's got pockets The rocks beneath my feet begin to crack Oh, I look into the waters, long ago that current caught us And we tried, I tried, I really fucking tried But the rain kept coming down, I watched that woman drown Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much) Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come) There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling) (Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling) Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much) Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come) There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling) (Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling) Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much) Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come) There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling) (Can't you hear it howling?) Of calling (calling), calling (calling) Shoulder the sky (I can't wait to show you how much) Open those eyes (I know you can be, just let the rain come) There's a kind (let the rain come down, darling) (Can't you hear it howling you? It's calling) of calling Calling in the rainfall