Tears

You left me tired and lonely And I can't believe I'm still waiting around I don't wanna cry, but you know me so well I just wanna hold back the tears that keep coming This one brought me to my knees because I needed to confess When you've been a wild child, you got plenty on your conscience They don't sing your praises 'cause convos done get responseless But I just keep on speaking regardless, I do the longest I started off confronting my demons, but they were monstrous Then I became the monster, started acting bonkers Heartbreak connected to pounds, so then I got hundreds Turn them into thousands, that's robberies from Hondas I had to say it all, that's why I'm dropping to my knees In case I have to crawl Ran before I learnt to walk, sang before I learnt to talk Middle fingers up, screaming "Fuck the law" Like I'm a Tupac Shakur, so many times I snapped a jaw Last time we spoke about me seeing my potential I was broke and couldn't afford the rental on my residential When I wrote them first tapes I was still struggling with my mental When I listen back now, I wish I wrote 'em with a pencil When your heart feels like it's froze up And you don't wanna lose your composure How was that stress? Kevlar plates in my black vest Escaping invest, Monte Carlo, live off the interest I'm calm now, but I've been vexed I say I'm humble then I jump out of the Lambo looking windswept And I'm like, "What's with all these fancy things? I must've been on Pinterest" I told myself I'd get it all, but back then I was in debt You left me tired and lonely And I can't believe I'm still waiting around I don't wanna cry, but you know me so well I just wanna hold back the tears that keep coming Yeah, look, yeah See, when the love doesn't work, that means your heart's broken Blind to the bigger picture, eyes half open Sometimes I am hopeless, giving in to psychosis But they look at me for guidance now like I am Moses I told myself I'd win when I was homeless, mind focused I used to feel like an imposter in designer loafers I hope the weed smokers reload this Jaded, jaded, jaded, that's my emotions I told 'em walk with me Hail Mary, would you run quick, see They wanna see you drown, what if you decide to fly? Time after time I've cried, I'm dry There's no tears in me, there's no fear in me I know you've been standing here with me in my ear Whispering a prayer, but I told ya I'm a soldier And my heart will be strong 'til I disappear (until I disappear) You left me tired and lonely And I can't believe I'm still waiting around I don't wanna cry, but you know me so well I just wanna hold back the tears that keep coming Dear Roy