Introvert

(There's a war, there's a war) The kingdom's on fire, the blood of a young messiah I see sinners in a church, I see sinners in a church Sometimes I might be introvert There's a war inside, I hear battle cries Mothers burying sons, young boys playing with guns The devil's a liar, fulfill your wildest desires Now, I don't wanna be the one to doctor this But if you can't feel pain, then you can't feel the opposite The fight between the Yin and Yang's a fight you'll never win I study humans, that makes me an anthropologist I'm not into politics, but I know it's dark times Parts of the world still living in apartheid But if I don't takе this winner's flight, that's career suicide Though I should've been a friеnd when your grandma died I see the illness eat my aunt laying in her bed I see her soul rising as her body gets closer to death Find a way, I'll find a way The world's not over I will make it, don't you cry In God we trust 'cause we're not alone I need a licence to feel Internal wounds and I'm not tryna be healed (no, I don't, no, I don't) I sabotage what we are trying to build 'Cause of feelings I keep inside, but it's time to reveal (reveal, reveal) I hate the thought of just being a burden I hate that these conversations are surfaced Simz the artist or Simbi the person? To you I'm smiling, but really, I'm hurting I dedicate my life and gave my heart over twenty-something years Left wondering how I even feel But was it even worth it? I bottle up and then spill it in verses One day I'm wordless, next day I'm a wordsmith Close to success, but to happiness, I'm the furthest At night, I wonder if my tears will dry on their own Hoping I will fulfill Amy's purpose Angel said, "Don't let ego be a disturbance" Inner demon said, "Motherfucker, you earned this" Like they strip you of everything you're deserving Realise there is a prison in us, we are conditioned as fuck Man, it's like they can't sleep 'til our spirit is crushed How much fighting must we do? We've been fearless enough All we seen is broken homes here and poverty Corrupt government officials, lies, and atrocities How they talking on what's threatening the economy? Knocking down communities to re-up on properties I'm directly affected, it does more than just bother me Look beyond the surface, don't just see what you wanna see My speech ain't involuntary Projecting intentions straight from my lungs I'm a black woman and I'm a proud one We walk in blind faith not knowing the outcome But as long as we're unified, then we've already won Find a way, I'll find a way The world's not over I will make it, don't you cry In God we trust 'Cause we're not alone (Still feels like I'm in big trouble) (Feels like, feels like, feels like I'm in big trouble) (Big trouble) (Feels like, feels like, feels like I'm in big trouble (Feels like, feels like I'm in big trouble) And so it begins The base is an amalgamation of everything Rules are not to be played by rebels The story of never ending Your introversion led you here Intuition protected you along the way Feelings allowed you to be well-balanced And perspective gave you foresight The top of a mountain is nothing without the climb Only the strong will survive (Only the strong will survive) Alone, but not lonely Your truth unveils with time As you embark on a journey Of what it takes to be a woman