Infliction

My life's scars run so deep Deep as in before birth Some things just won't ever change Feed myself some more pain Bad memories of childhood Corrupting innocence Not teaching me, misleading me Leaving me on my own Why questioning? No answering This shit's just so fucked up Ignoring my own personal Self characteristics Why no one was there to look after me Torn in between myself Lost everything taken away from me Words they can't hear, deaf to hear Born out of somebody's audacity Not given a fair chance Lies spoken in words that I do not know Pain teaching me suffering I can't ignore my feelings My own hostility Wearing my hate on my face Look into my eyes How in the world could you take care of me? You could not care for you I'm left with these horrible memories Time easing me, freeing me Rise out of my conscious suppression And ask what the fuck? What for? Truth wakes in me from my experience Laugh wondering what it means Do not create so blindly Better your offerings Lives are at stake Don't deny us the future Powers beyond in our hands Ask yourself what it means Never forget to look deep Finding thyself Laws I was reborn with God-like in character Choice to create I will not make that choice Severing of my blood Extinction of my flesh By my own hand I can't deceive myself Childhood wars, I suffered through them, my institution Some pain will last like time unchanged Cannot forget, lost in illusion, trapped in confusion Stress overwhelms my peace of mind I was born from demons From souls so far from peace Ask where they came from Woke with them, spoke with them They too came from demons Where can we all find peace? Life should mean so much more Peace will come when we sleep To live is to suffer tragically My life is complete hell, infliction I know I am not alone, suffering We all have our own shit, infliction Grasping of all meaning inside myself What we must all endure Constant awakening of what my spirit brings Breathe from my strength, child of ignorance Living in infliction, multiplied misery Just part of birth, this is the consequence What do I ask myself? This shit's just got to change Some pain will last, living in infliction