Grace Notes

When I was wandering anywhere I could Far beyond the riverbank, deeper than the woods When my naked eye said, I'm gonna find you The night sky was nothing but stars When it's all I can manage, despite how I try When somebody's looking where I like to hide I remember the moon while I swim along the bottom When I trust you, it isn't too hard When I could give away everything I had Leave a whole dream in a brown paper bag When the time went by, it said, Man, that was easy Like honey was laid in my hand When I lie to myself or I'm honest at best Or sell my whole story 'til none of it's left When the sun goes down like promises matter We had something I understand When the ghost I like to deny It's haunted me all of my life Singing all its songs in my corners and cobwebs When I let them follow me home When there's so many homes that I've known So many lives that love has given me Grace notes with meat on the bone When I was being it, whatever it was So brave or broken, but only just enough When my self-respect cackled, What were you thinking? 'Til it walked off the edge of the world When I kiss on a stone like they all rolled away Or call upon my demons when I don't want to play When I think of a ghost like light from a diamond Like freedom feeling a pearl When the garden I've watered with tears Is beautiful this time of year And all the blossoms fall when their petals get heavy When I let them follow me home When there's so many homes that I've known So many lives that love has given me Grace notes with meat on the bone When the ghost I like to deny It's haunted me all of my life When I would say it though no one was around Or cry like some children at a carnival clown Forever was a word like a name in the sidewalk Or the wind blowing open a door When I make what I'm missing or claim what I stole Or live like I'm digging just for filling in a hole When I lose so much, I just burst into laughter Like someone who knows what it's for When the day I pray never comes Presses me under its tongue When all this water flows and every wave makes an ocean When I let them follow me home When there's so many homes that I've known So many lives that love has given me Grace notes with meat on the bone