Goodbye

[Joe Budden] I remember it like it just happened I could of sworn it was a dream But in reality it hit me like a nightmare Or at least that's how it seemed I just got a grip on our relationship We was ironing things out, started picking up steam And when we didn't need it, when it all got heated And we both said some things that we probably didn't mean God intervened, guess war was at stake Thought we left nothing over, he put more on the plate She came home from the doctor with news I been wantin' Said family was incoming, she pregnant, twins coming But that's gotta be a lie She sighed, couldn't stop the tears coming from her eyes That birth control she on, for them it's suicide But as long as it's still inside, 2 of them, one survived Hard turn from memorable to cynical Picturing clothes for what would've been identical Similar outfits, similar names My deceased kid's ultrasound in a frame So I'm deprived of my chance to be a better dad Staring at my twins that I never had I she'd a tear, looking up in the sky Even though y'all just got here, goodbye [Hook] Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell But it's not the end of the chapter Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell I'll see you again in the afterlife [Crooked I] My biological sperm donor, didn't wanna be a daddy So he hopped in his Caddy and turned corners on us Turned on us out the clear blue His last memory of his son is seeing me out his rearview I still love him yo, but I love his brother mo' My uncle showed me love no one could know Young and po' with a tougher road To suffer hunger was nothing but Unc' would hold Us down would help mom lift the motherload I got chronin, I used to wonder what it would be like To speak to pops as a grown man He provided that feeling, told me to take my career into my own hands He was there when I had no fans My cellphone rings, and after I answer A voice says "Your uncle's been diagnosed with cancer" Worst news in my life, him and chemo going 12 rounds with a disease And they both losing the fight I'm rushing up to see the cyanide Praying for a miracle, I don't wanna see my idol die Before he did, the look in his eyes Said "Even though you just got here, goodbye" [Hook] [Bridge] I'll see you again in the afterlife Someday in heaven we will reunite The flesh disappears but the soul survives Till next time, my friend, farewell, goodbye [Joell Ortiz] I walked in your daughter's house, knowing that you gone But still looking out the corner of my eye, hoping you on the couch That call felt like I was beef, that got shot up Ironic, I was on tour with Tech N9ne and Slaughterhouse E tried to talk to me, crystal rubbed my back, as they were pourin' out I caught the next thing soarin' out Now I'm in the air, in the midwest somewhere They said turbulence was severe, I don't know what they talkin' bout I ain't feel a bump, body numb, mind drifting I'm sniffling, asthma acting up, I'm whistling My mothers face looked so much different I'm kissing, my son, my aunt pacing in the kitchen My vision blurry, still I saw your face clear What a loss, this time I did more than waste beer Michelle's strong, she held on, we got all the way there Then we walked in, she fell on the floor, this ain't fair You was the voice when I considered them thoughts that ain't clear Hey granny, I was fifth row at the Grammy's An award they ain't hand me, but I sat behind Will And right in front of Wayne, and got seen by the family I miss the early morning convos, believe me Regis on the TV, and the best baked ziti But you had an old white affair, grandpa's all fly Even though you been got there, goodbye [Hook]